To hate

I learnt to hate.
I never knew how it was
to hate someone so strongly
but now that I do
I think I know…
It’s like… sipping a bitter,
bitter coffee
so slowly
that the taste wraps around your tongue
and burns it.
It’s like… bringing a matchstick
closer to your chest
and letting it create a hole
a red, blazing hole.
It’s like… being the rose yourself
that the lover crushes in his hands
seeing the fragrance melt—
the petals wither
in your own existence.
It’s like… praying and not receiving
Dying… and not dying.
It’s like panting breathlessly for air—
and blocking all pumps out yourself
But is that hate?
Or did I just define
how it was
To miss you?

~ Maria Imran.


15 thoughts on “To hate

  1. Mani says:

    “But is that hate?
    Or did I just define
    how it was
    To miss you?”

    you seriously didn’t say that … !!!

    Here I was thinking Its all about you … then you went and turned it … like upside down … Soo much feeling and soo much memories came flooding back … bohot zalim hai tu …!!!

    • randomlyabstract says:

      I am sorry my words brought you unpleasant memories. I really am.

      ‘then I went and turned it’ lol. :p Not about me. Don’t read my things like they’re about me. They are not.

      • Mani says:

        It was meant as a complement… really there was no need for apology…!!!

        تحریر جب تک پڑھنے والے کے جذبات کو درھم برھم نہ کر دے… ت

          • Mani says:

            It is my absolute pleasure … ham greebo ka zara mukhtalif andaaz hota hai tareef karne ga … bechare hum … tareef karte hue bhi shikwa karna zarori hota hai … aadat se majbeer hain na … HAHAHA 😀

            Stupid WordPress mobile app … teen baar mai ne comment likha … do baar galti se darmiyaan mai he likh raha tha kay post ho gya … tesri baar … itna lamba comment likha … aik mint kay liye attention hatai … mobile lock ho gya … wapis khola to saara gaiyab … 😦

            Anyways …like I was saying … It should touch the reader … maza to tabi aata hai na…!!!

            Aur jahan tak … “Not about me” … ki baat hai … my opinion is that … our writings reflect our experiences and emotions … kabhi na kabhi … kahi na kahi … hum per kuch na kuch beeti hooti hai … or in rare cases … we have seen someone … who is very close and dear to us … go through such experience … tabi itni gehrai aati hai alfaaz mai …!!!

            Kya khyaal hai ???

  2. Pamela says:

    Godd!! This was just something, I wanted to hear, but didn’t have the courage to tell myself…
    Those last lines, made me wince with pain.

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