I wish it was possible. to gain back. what I have lost. I don’t regret. everything. I only want. what I had.
When you came. I wasn’t ready. as a consequence. I have lost. a lot. since then.
Confidence. peace. writing. I saw myself, how freedom turns into. fear. a fear that you. cannot. name. tame. cannot show. cannot hide.
I saw what a void is. what it is like. to be. a mess. I saw also. that. God really is there.
I wish. I could move. I am not. a tree. but I think. I am. a tree. I know I should not. be.