Oh haaai, happy wordpress-versary to me. It’s been EIGHT WHOLE YEARS OH MY ALLAH!
I mean, that’s a lot. I just saw this notification and felt compelled to write a post. How much I have changed in these years and so has this blog and my relation with it. The PEOPLE, most of all. They were all such stories.
I don’t know, it was different back then of course. My current state is somewhat like my last post. My current hobbies are different than the old ones. Today I talked with a friend and after so long felt so free to speak whatever I had in mind, zero filters. I really needed that. It felt liberating even when I was being so vulnerably weak-ish. It is important, I guess, to have someone listen.
She was very surprised to hear that I don’t read books anymore. I don’t know, it doesn’t feel that bad to me. I’ve accepted it. I can’t.
I wrote a darkish story after a long long while and I’m so glad I did. I had stopped doing that COMPLETELY after two ridiculous comments. That was liberating too.
Today I really wanted to write. I would have, but I lost inspo somewhere in between. But it would have kinda only been an effort to go back to this place in my mind so I’ll just read it and leave you with a link:
♫heart·strings
Yep that’s all. End of weird post. Who still blogs?
Randomly Abstract 
“Today I really wanted to write. I would have, but I lost inspo somewhere in between” …
I hate it when that happens to me… 😫
so many of poems got lost because of this … once that train of thought is broken it’s almost impossible to reach that same state of emotion and mindset.
You get inspired and then you cannot find the pen and paper and if you happen to find one … someone calls and breaks it.
Imagine I am still working on
Aaj kal mai kahi, aur dil kahi rehta hai…
I have written 2 or 3 more verses but for the life of me I am unable to finish it! 😕
PLEASE COMPLETE IT.
I know, I understand this. But please complete just that one this month!
I know Yaar and I really do wanted to complete it for you.
The other day I sat down for more than an hour, couldn’t write a single line.
You know how the words they become like a flow. Everything I wrote felt forced not how the words just naturally fall after each other!
Ahhhhggg … it was so frustratingly annoying 🤬
Yikes, I totally feel that. Tip: complete it for yourself. Under no compulsion. :p
Give it another chance some other time.
(The only side note with the tip: annoying or not, still do it in September only. 😂 Do NOT forget to share.)
True! Matlab kitnay tou masterpieces aisy hi neend ke nazar bhi hojatay hain :p Or otherwise baad me wo cheez aisi nahi lagti jiske peechay bhaga jaye.
The amount of things I’ve lost like that is SO high.
This is kinda sorta my story as well. Sigh. Happy anniversary!
Sigh x2. Also, thanks man!
You’re welcome. Be well, always.
You too! 🌼🌼
=)
Also wish you very Happy 8th Blogversary! 🙂
Thanks!
SubhanAllah eight years is alot!
MashaAllah MashaAllah congrats! ❤ When I think of my blog, I always think of you.
You were one of those people who encouraged me. Thank you, Maria (baji) ❤
Yooooou, I love this comment. I read it subah subah and it magically made my day. Jazakillah ❤
Ily + miss you + no baji plis lol
Alhamdulillah 💜 waeeyaki 🌺
Ilyt! Ahahahahaha I think for all Marias I say Baji just to annoy them.😂
Congratulations! You should know you’re not allowed to stop with your amazing posts until I die 😋❤️
You’re totally the best bus. ❤
😭❤️
سرکار ۔۔۔ نظم پوسٹ کر دی آخر کار
امید ہے کہ
it’s up to your expectations a little bit.
اور یہ بھی کہ دیر آئے پر درست آئے ۔۔۔ کی بنا پر ہماری کاہلی اور نالائقی کو درگذر کیا جائے گا ☹️