Hello. I need help again today.
How many people ask you for help on this very day?
Well, hey, don’t put down the phone during any minute. I have so much to say.
I feel like crying today. I feel like crying a lot. I don’t know. Remember that person?
You know, I was very happy today. I was very happy until later when this started. You know, I would have closed everything down, shut myself to the sweet escape but right now, I am talking to you. Because I’m so done with running away. I run to reach the same place every freaking time. I am so done.
Hello? Please say something else. I know you get me. I know you understand. I am already breathing, I am not dying. And by the way, I can never actually commit suicide, like ever. Inshaa Allah as well but like never.
Okay, I am listening. But I am not done yet?
You listen to me. I wrote my first poem today. It was so painful it was exhilarating.
You listen to me. I wrote my last poem today. It was only painful.
You listen to me. I never intended to take it all so seriously.
You listen to me. I miss every dead person on earth tonight. I can feel the graveyard wind inside me. The sad laughter of the sister killed for honor. The sad laughter of the struggling maid. The sad laughter of the parents of the raped child. The sad laughter of the fallen bird. The hollow dread of a Justin Cronin novel.
I haven’t read in ages. I have a viva tomorrow. Remember I told you I loved exams for their distracting power? I don’t right now because it’s not working.
I can hear his chair creaking. I know he is sitting in the last room by the staircase with a pack of cigarettes. You know I hate cigarettes. But how would you know? You’re just a therapist. A listener, that’s all. A dead phone line.
Randomly Abstract 