Ghosts of our love.

I make the world’s best coffee.
I know this because you said it.
You said it because you meant it.
You meant it because you loved me.
You loved me why?

I stand here in my house – once what meant “home” – and shiver like a leaf
Because the enormity of this place seems terrifying without you and I feel I can’t do without my roots.

Walls shake as your laughter echoes, the defenses I had made come crumbling down
I can no more understand where to look for you – or not to – as my feet take me running round and round

My ears are ringing now with a voice that isn’t yours, my vision blurs with something that should be tears
My mind is on fire and my heart in a sea, and my room and its clock and its bed and its floor
And your pen and your shirt and your watch and your sheets
And your smiles and your eyes, and your eyes, and your eyes.

Then you come and hold me – out of where?
Whisper something soothing like a prayer;
Running your fingers through my hair, you hold my gaze and say: “darling, please take care”

I listen to you and sit down.
Cross my legs, bend my head, begin to count.
I notice that my breathing calms and the knots in my body do unknot
As your scent enters into me and your soul takes a spot.

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Attracting Positivity~

Hey people!

I had been going through some state of desperation, and desolation, and it was not satisfied until I cried my heart out yesterday!

So its very true that once you give permission for your tears to roll down, they take with them your sorrows. And generally, leave you feeling light.

We keep our tears with ourselves thinking it as a protective shield:  that keeps with us and holds back our fears, our disappointments. But the truth is: that as long as we force back our worries in, we cant let positivity out.

See, there is this misery with you. And you feel like its all over for you. And its such a big loss, that it seems nothing can fill it up EVER again! So what actually happens is, that when such a situation occurs, we somehow begin to promise ourselves that we are never going to let it go. And without even knowing it, we keep hold on our promise so tightly, that we don’t realize what we are doing with ourselves. And thus, we fail to feel the remaining beauty of the world.

There had been two times in my life when I cried the worst. Ofcourse I have cried many a times before and after that because well, I am a girl!;) And I am pretty sensitive!! But the worst two times were:

1. When my old Grandmother died. (May her soul rest in peace.Ameen)
2. When my parents went abroad for a month.

Both of these, as I now observe, have been due to losses. When a loved one is far, may it be temporary(case 2) or permanent(case 1), its just unbearably sad. But when something is unbearably sad, one must get closer to God.

When you trust Allah, He soothes out all your ways.

-Trust

Secondly, when you attract positivity, it makes it way to you. When you let failure overcome you, it actually coils itself over you. When you know you are bad at it, you just get to be bad at it. When you know nothing will be alright, what has the world got to be right then?

But this is just too hard. But of course not impossible. Anything that can come to a human’s mind HAS to be possible. Because it came in that mind.

If you think you are beaten, you are,
If you think you dare not, you don’t.
If you like to win, but you think you can’t,
It is almost certain you won’t.

If you think you’ll lose, you’re lost,
For out in the world we find,
Success begins with a fellow’s will.
It’s all in the state of mind.

If you think you are outclassed, you are,
You’ve got to think high to rise,
You’ve got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize.

Life’s battles don’t always go
To the stronger or faster man.
But soon or late the man who wins,
Is the man who thinks he can.

                                                         ~ C. W. Longenecker

Best Wishes!

-Randomlyabstract.